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Lost & Found

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I’m back! After a very long spring and summer hiatus I finally have some reformity and transformity in my life.

I’ve been rather transparent with my mental health journey in the past and I work hard to maintain as much of a balance in my life as I can but I truly needed to practice what I preach and take a good long hard look in the mirror these past months.  Dealing with depression and anxiety is no joke, it’s crippling at times…and it’s a constant work in progress.

I’ve struggled with the decision to go back on my meds or not and after a lot of research and soul searching I’ve decided to try different avenues for now. I fear the side effects of antidepressants more than anything at this point.  What I’ve done instead is perhaps a bit hippy-dippy…I’ve stocked my home with essential oils to diffuse and roll-on, I’ve amped my gut health vitamins and nutrients as well as be more consistent with my multi-vitamins. (Did you know there’s a direct relationship between your gut and your mental health? My regime now includes probiotics AND prebiotics.). I’ve also started to take time 3-5 times a week to study some personal growth “textbooks” (which right now include a lot of Brene Brown “The Gifts of Imperfection” and Sarah Knight “The Life-Changing Magic of Not Giving a F*ck).   I’m slowly learning what it means to trust myself and stand up for myself.  I’m a perfectionist in the most ugly ways of that word.  I am learning to be kinder to myself.  Asking for help is THE HARDEST thing for me.  It smells and tastes like failure and I really need to change my perspective on that (once again, practice what I preach!). I have a lot to learn and a long way to go but I needed to take that time to focus on my health.

I’m all about the simple things, the little pleasures and the morsels of happy-inducing that flutter through our lives daily. I had gotten to a place of so much pain, bleakness, guilt, worry, regret and just plain old despair that I couldn’t shake the dark cloud that had made its home over me.   I needed to refocus and get back to a healthier head space. I needed to do this for me and my family. So that in turn led to way less blogging and photographing for the blog (which can I just say has gotten a lot harder with my impatient helper!! Lol!)…BUT I’m back! I’m still working on me but I’m breathing a little bit easier everyday! So the lost has been found.

I encourage you to take the time you need for your own heart and health too!  It’s a day-to-day process and it takes compassion and persistence.  It ultimately starts with you but there are many ways to get help…don’t go it alone.

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2 thoughts on “Lost & Found”

  1. GOOD for you! I did wonder what happened to the blog but assumed that life just got in the way. 🤗 I’m curious about your gut health stuff! I am so fed up with our health care system that I’m going to try to cure Curtis’s chrons myself!!

    On Tue, Aug 14, 2018 at 12:56 PM A Simple Living wrote:

    > rheastewart posted: ” I’m back! After a very long spring and summer hiatus > I finally have some reformity and transformity in my life. I’ve been rather > transparent with my mental health journey in the past and I work hard to > maintain as much of a balance in my life as I can ” >

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    1. And here begins my pact to get posting more!! Wish me luck! LOL
      I really value info/research by joyous health and fraiche nutrition and both of them recommend “Genuine Health” brand. I just recently bought their pre-biotic gut health drink blend and use their probiotics although I find them to be a bit strong for me and haven’t found the proper routine with them yet…I’m wondering if I need to go down a few counts as far as the amount of live cfu’s. There is so much info out there it’s daunting though! (and yes, I agree with the whole frustration with our health care system!!). Read as much as you can has been my MO…I’m not sure that helps you at all, chrones is a wicked one!!

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