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Lost & Found

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I’m back! After a very long spring and summer hiatus I finally have some reformity and transformity in my life.

I’ve been rather transparent with my mental health journey in the past and I work hard to maintain as much of a balance in my life as I can but I truly needed to practice what I preach and take a good long hard look in the mirror these past months.  Dealing with depression and anxiety is no joke, it’s crippling at times…and it’s a constant work in progress.

I’ve struggled with the decision to go back on my meds or not and after a lot of research and soul searching I’ve decided to try different avenues for now. I fear the side effects of antidepressants more than anything at this point.  What I’ve done instead is perhaps a bit hippy-dippy…I’ve stocked my home with essential oils to diffuse and roll-on, I’ve amped my gut health vitamins and nutrients as well as be more consistent with my multi-vitamins. (Did you know there’s a direct relationship between your gut and your mental health? My regime now includes probiotics AND prebiotics.). I’ve also started to take time 3-5 times a week to study some personal growth “textbooks” (which right now include a lot of Brene Brown “The Gifts of Imperfection” and Sarah Knight “The Life-Changing Magic of Not Giving a F*ck).   I’m slowly learning what it means to trust myself and stand up for myself.  I’m a perfectionist in the most ugly ways of that word.  I am learning to be kinder to myself.  Asking for help is THE HARDEST thing for me.  It smells and tastes like failure and I really need to change my perspective on that (once again, practice what I preach!). I have a lot to learn and a long way to go but I needed to take that time to focus on my health.

I’m all about the simple things, the little pleasures and the morsels of happy-inducing that flutter through our lives daily. I had gotten to a place of so much pain, bleakness, guilt, worry, regret and just plain old despair that I couldn’t shake the dark cloud that had made its home over me.   I needed to refocus and get back to a healthier head space. I needed to do this for me and my family. So that in turn led to way less blogging and photographing for the blog (which can I just say has gotten a lot harder with my impatient helper!! Lol!)…BUT I’m back! I’m still working on me but I’m breathing a little bit easier everyday! So the lost has been found.

I encourage you to take the time you need for your own heart and health too!  It’s a day-to-day process and it takes compassion and persistence.  It ultimately starts with you but there are many ways to get help…don’t go it alone.

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Nosh

Super Simple Thai Curry Soup

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Ok I don’t know how “Thai” this soup is in all technicality but it’s spicy and full of flavour and crazy easy to make!!

Here’s what you do:

  • 2 Tbsp oil
  • 1 1/2 tsp ground coriander
  • 1 tsp ground cumin
  • 1 tsp dried mustard
  • 1/4 tsp ground clove
  • 1 tsp turmeric
  • 1/2-1 tsp chili flakes (as desired)
  • salt and pepper
  • 2 tsp fresh grated ginger
  • 2 cloves garlic minced
  • 1 sweet potato, peeled and diced
  • 2 carrots thinly sliced
  • 1 bell pepper, thinly sliced then cut into spoon size pieces
  • 1/2 red onion thinly sliced
  • 2 cups chopped kale
  • 1 cup shredded cooked chicken
  • 1 can coconut milk
  • 2 litres chicken stock
  • garnish: rice noodles, cilantro, lime, chili flakes, toasted coconut

In a soup pot, toast spices in oil. Add garlic, ginger and cook slightly.  Add the veg (minus the kale) and stir to coat with oil and spices. Add the stock and simmer until potatoes are tender. Add chicken and kale and simmer. Just prior to serving, add coconut milk, heat through and serve over cooked, strained rice noodles. Top with cilantro, coconut, a squirt of lime and more chili flakes if desired! Fresh and Full of Flavor!!

Mom-ing

When the bottom falls out…

Picture this, you’re carrying an extremely heavy load, all tucked into a box. There are a million things in this box.  Somethings heavy, some as light as air.  Your box never changes size, it just gets fuller or empties as life persists.  You must carry this box from point A to B to C etc…now imagine the bottom of that box is beginning to get worn and ragged and is starting to fall apart. What do you do?

In the wake of so many local and beyond local tragedies and excessive loads that so many people I know (me included) are carrying, I felt compelled to write a post and share some thoughts on getting through those really rough times that life inevitably throws at us. Sometimes we are assaulted by life’s cruelties and some people especially seem to have to carry extremely heavy loads.

First and foremost you need to remember ‘you are not alone’.  You really aren’t.  Just like in the box scenario, if the bottom starts to fall out call for help.  Call anyone.  A friend, a relative, a helpline, a doctor…anyone.  You cannot carry that load alone.  It’s impossible, not failure.  Remember that above everything…’you are not alone and nor should you have to carry it alone’.  Just like “A joy shared is doubled,  A struggle shared is halved.” We as humans are not built to do this life alone.  We are meant to live, work, play, and love in packs/groups/tribes.  There are people and resources out there to get you and that load you’re carrying the help you need.  It may not be easy but trust me it’s worth it.     YOU are worth it.

  • Kids Help Phone: 1-800-668-6868
  • Canadian Mental Health Association: 613-745-7750 (MB division: 204-982-6100)
  • Canadian Association for Suicide Prevention: 204-784-4073
  • Your Life Counts: 289-820-5777
  • Manitoba Suicide Line: 1-877-435-7170
  • Manitoba Mental Health Education Resource Centre: 1-855-942-6568

Sometimes in the midst of disaster/tragedy/struggle our minds go into complete overdrive and so begins the cycle of never-ending anxiety and often despair.  Through the years I’ve learned some very basic tools to get me through those really aggressive times, especially at night, when the mind snowballs and won’t shut off and let us sleep, this in turn making for even more anxious days ahead.  Simply put, you need to stop your mind and stop that pattern.  Lots of people use meditation and deep breathing.  I find that what even works more simply is to ‘stop and think of 5 things I can hear’…’stop and think of 5 things I can physically feel’.  It seems so juvenile and trivial but it nearly always works long enough to calm my mind, slow my breathing, and relax my body enough that I can sleep.  Everything seems easier in the light of day.  So when you’re laying there at night and the world rushes in and your box starts to get even heavier, shut it out and think of 5 things…

Once you can stop the cycle that your brain inevitably wants to take you through with anxiety you are able to think clearer and this is when you need to focus on a new mantra of less worry.  Self-talk in a positive way is so extremely important.  Remind yourself that a) you are not alone. b) you can get through this. c) you are worth it. d) it WILL get better. And breathe. REALLY breathe.  Fill your lungs slowly and release that air slowly.  Focus on one thing for one moment. And ask for help.  Please ask for help.  No matter how little or big your struggles are there is someone there to help.  No matter the task or request, someone is there to help.  There are medications, counselling and mental health therapies that DO work.  Keep searching until you find the help you need but don’t do it alone…you need to fix and strengthen the bottom of that load you’re carrying but there are tools/supplies/resources out there to help.

We have to talk about it.  We have to share our loads. We have to reach out and ask for help. We have to be kinder to ourselves. We have to take care of each other. We have to have faith in brighter days ahead.

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Nosh

Easter “Hop Tarts”

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Here’s a fruity snack or decadent breakfast item that is sure to put a little pep in your step and hop in your walk!  E and I made ours into egg shapes and filled them with blueberry filling but any fruit filling would work (apple cinnamon, very cherry, raspberry, or even a triple berry blend) and any shape would be fun!  I’ve made heart shaped ones before and have even baked them on a popsicle stick for a cute little pie pop!

The dough we used is a bit of a twist to my favourite empanada dough recipe.  I use the traditional dough for a multitude of hand pie options…chicken pot pie, pizza, taco, and mushroom spinach just to name a few.  It’s a really nice dough to work with, and the hand pies or empanadas can be frozen prior to baking or frying with no alteration to the end product.  Since I wanted to make these “hop tarts” sweet as opposed to savoury and a little more rich than usual I substituted the lard for butter and added 1/4 cup sugar as well as 1 tsp vanilla and 1/2 tsp lemon zest.  You could also swap out the vanilla and lemon zest for almond extract, orange zest or even cinnamon and nutmeg.

Traditional Dough Recipe:

  • 2 cups flour
  • 1/2 tsp salt
  • 1 tsp baking powder
  • 1 tsp sugar (1/4 cup for ‘hop tarts’)
  • 6 Tbsp lard (or butter for ‘hop tarts’)
  • 1 whole egg plus 1 egg yolk
  • 1/2 cup cold water

Mix dough together and let rest in fridge for 1/2 hour at least (I have mixed it up the day before and it works well too).

Roll out dough , cut into desired shapes and fill, cover with the top piece of dough (cut into same shape), crimp or fork edges and bake at 375* until golden.

Blueberry Filling

  • 1 1/2 cup frozen blueberries
  • 1 tsp lemon juice
  • 2 Tbsp sugar
  • 1 Tbsp cornstarch (mixed with a bit of water)

In a sauce pan cook the berries with the sugar and lemon juice.  Add the cornstarch slurry and cook until thick.  Let cool before filling ‘hop tarts’.

Once slightly cooled, glaze with icing as desired and decorate with sprinkles. We tinted our icing with a violet food colouring gel and sprinkled with rainbow sprinkles but the sky is the limit! And of course we enlisted the help of a few tractors in today’s bake-off…all roads lead back to farming after all!!  These yummy treats are all ready and packed up for a special delivery this weekend!  Happy Spring! Hoppy Easter!

 

 

Create

Easiest Easter Decs Ever!

Easter being early this year and Spring being late is really messing with my head but when little man asks to do a craft project the timing just works out!  This year we made some super simple (and somewhat messy) art sure to entice the Easter Bunny to hide some goodies at our place!

All you need is some washable, kids craft paint, clothespins, pom-poms, paper, and eggs! (We use those unbreakable fake eggs from the dollar store that are set up in cartons and can be used for an array of egg decorating techniques!)

Pour some paint into bowls (one color per bowl).  We had coloured pom-poms that coordinated with the paint colors for an easy way to remember to not mix colors but any color of pom-poms will work.  Clip a pom-pom onto your clothespin and this becomes your paint ‘brush’.  Draw out an egg shape onto your piece of paper and let your decorating begin.  E made a crocodile on one of his as well as polka dot lines and I went the more traditional route with waves and polka dots.  It was a really easy way to paint for little hands and we had fun (despite the massive clean-up…thank goodness for washable paint!)

Continue with your pom-pom brushes and decorate some eggs!  We used some leftover letter stickers I had laying around to spell out “EASTER” and we painted over the stickers and then removed them once the paint had dried for an easy little greeting!  E liked the flat paper egg painting better as he didn’t get as messy.  I can’t figure out why he hates getting his hands dirty with paint, markers, and food yet dirt and mud is fine!!! Boys!

We decorated up our house for Easter this weekend amid the chaos and it was a great way to get into the spirit and talk about Spring!  These crafts are easy enough to do in an afternoon, they’re cheap and the supplies are easy to find!  Here’s hoping we see some of those bright and fresh colors outside soon!